to the extreme. kyle and justin left back home, the past 3 weeks have been great. i miss having my friends around at all times, growing up takes strength, but i dig it. shopping/ exchanging/ returning.. its a big headache these days. i believe my college/ day job ruined the romanticism of dressing rooms and fashion shows because i just, don’t get into it as much as i once did. i’ll be in hawaii by wednesday and my right leg is insanely bruised up, attractive and how? anemia? possibly. vegas? most likely. i need a tan to cover up the self inflicted clumsy damage and i pray i get one the first day i am there. i can’t wait to just be there, i’m not looking forward to the flight [of course]. new years resolutions can be fun.. and i’ve been starting mine all month.. jotting down notes of what i will be doing and cheating on the 1st with now, ie : starting early. the one huge resolution i have in mind, is to be open.. with myself, with my heart, with my life.. no more shrugging things off and avoiding emotions, no more freaking out over tiny things that don’t matter, no more pushing people away.. easier said than done, this i know, but i think i am ready.
“That’s the thing about girls. Every time they do something pretty, even if they’re not much to look at, or even if they’re sort of stupid, you fall half in love with them, and then you never know where the hell you are. Girls. Jesus Christ. They can drive you crazy. They really can.”—~J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye. [ boys do this too ]
“I don’t know where I’m going, and I don’t care where I’ve been. I only know that, as the hero of my own story, it’s for me to find out. The blissful frailty of unwritten conclusions and unguarded access sweetens the desire. So despite familiar warnings, irresistible promise draws my eyes wide open and away from domestic comfort zones, with only certain inquiry, hope and faith to recommend my course. I’ll never know until I try.”—tc of the day
[in regards to going to kyle’s house for the night..]
j to s - i’m caught up watching pretty woman s to j - i’m playing wii, i think there’s something wrong with this scenario j to s - hahaha… don’t say anything to anyone! s to j - your secret is safe with me… s to j - not ! j to s - i’m actually watching Rambo, drinking beer and smoking a cigar while working on a car and climbing a mountain. s to j - HAHAHA. i’m documenting this conversation.
a misinterpreted love song, gone wrong. terribly. to the extremity of a nostalgic remedy the only focus, ill faceted, pretty pictured moments. breathe. the one true meaning being, breathe. forget how we came to be, where we were when we were us and i grew lost, completely. terribly.. to the longevity of a love song following a broken melody burnt conscience. on cue, in sync, entirely. i hope you understand, all of this.. because it took me 4.3 seconds to admit the nonsense in its entirety. i, became i during a misinterpreted love song, gone wrong. thankfully.
said if i should find myself in your shoes, in the state of worry and mind all of the time,
i just found myself extremely irritated when thinking of a few recent memories, only to pinch myself and force that frown upside down. focusing on forward movement has always been a thing of the constant for me but i tend to dwell on and fall in between a nostalgic rhapsody from time to time.. life is so good right now. i am in love; i’m growing up. & it feels fucking fantastic.
Meg and I have decided to start training as of January 1st, for the LA Marathon in 2012. Yes, its an entire year.. but do you realize its a 26 mile run? We are going to start a blog to document our progess and in a sense “peer pressure” us to stick with the goal. I’m definitely not a fan of running, but as of late.. thats all I’ve felt like doing. We will be training ourselves and have been researching tips and what not on the constant.. a lot of cross country running, yoga [covered], pilates [covered].. and a proper diet [kinda covered].. Our first Marathon is in March, its only a 5k but the most important tip of “training for a long distance run” is to run shorter distance runs in between to better equip ourselves for any sort of weather condition.
i’m excited.. and i can’t wait to mark this off of my list of “things i wish to accomplish in life” - stay in touch.