1. i have been watching romance movies all day 2. i am literally obsessed with the wedding dress i designed for k 3. eunice has been added to my group of favorite partners in the art crime world 4. i am attempting to make fried kale tonight for dinner 5. i’ve stopped trying and it feels great 6. i really miss my friend jenna and our “can’t even tell its raining” conversations. 7. i deleted what i had here before because wine takes my filter away. 8. i think the seminar i went to on friday changed my life.. 9. i threw out my entire closet of clothing, 5 boxes to the Goodwill.. 10. i just want to have a tea party for my 26th birthday, even if i’ve had invites to vegas, diego and san francisco.. a definite sign of the times. [i will probably end up in vegas]
“I use to worry a lot about who I would be when I grew up. How much money I would make or if someday I would become some big deal. Sometimes the thing you most want doesn’t happen. Sometimes the thing you never expect often does. You meet thousands of people and none of them really touch you. Then you meet one person and your life is changed forever.”—Love and Other Drugs
wow. can you say great experience? i’m always one for the “betterment of” and at times may come off as an 80 year old woman with an addiction to the Law Of Attraction or any other “Power of Now” series being published.. but they’re feel good words & who doesn’t like to feel good? I am definitely driven, self motivated & naturally inspired as well as over analytical, a procrastinator & easily distracted.. so upon being invited to this seminar for… free, i decided i’d take the day to soak in some knowledge with fellow successful as well as striving entrepreneurs for a new experience. This post may bore some of you, most of you, what have you.. but damn, the event was everything I needed. I met some great people and left with 6 different contacts [including financial advisers & investors thank you very much!] And people not only took interest in Funeral Parade and what it is about, they fell in love. Seeing as I was the youngest one there, it was a bit frustrating at first to receive the proper acknowledgment.. however, starting my career at the age of 20 definitely helped me prepare for this reaction, and once we started talking.. the Ooohhs and Oh woowwsss began coming to surface and business cards were being thrown left and right. A Publishing House & Visual Artist in San Diego? Sure.. why not. A Magazine Editor in New York? Umm, ok! A Financial Planner and Lender in Orange County, definitely! Upon hearing of the Free Business Planning and Coaching through the State, I truly realized how much free stuff there really is simply waiting to be found. THIS IS THE YEAR ! I feel as if I’ve been through a trial run of hell and back the past two years but am slowly realizing, it was definitely with reason.. Its made me stronger. I’m sad I have to miss the 2nd class tomorrow but I have a Wedding Dress to finish and an inspiration meeting to lead. To top this all off, a fellow FiDM Guest Speaker recommended I get involved in Guest Speaking because the FiDM students would “eat your words up!” Never a dull moment.. ♥
memories; the picture does look nostalgic in just the colour and such. what's the memory?
i’d go here as a kid w/ my family. My sister was a tomboy who never listened to anyone and i was a girly girl who never listened to anyone.. she was told to stop jumping on the rocks, avoided the pretense.. and fell in. it makes me laugh even to this day. :)
“Sometimes I don’t know where this dirty road is taking me
Sometimes I can’t even see the reason why
I guess I keep on gamblin’, lots of booze and lots of ramblin’
It’s easier than just a-waitin’ ‘round to die”—townes van zandt
sheeluv: i wish i were sleepy. i want to go to bed, so i can wake up and it be a new day, ever get like that?
taide: all the time
moods like these, i usually start a new project.. look for a new job.. plan a road trip.. contemplate moving far away.. write write & write some more.. & to sum it up, i become restless and look for new ways to avoid emotion. seeing as i am booked with projects, focused on working for myself so not really planning to move just yet, and am saving money.. i’ll pour another glass of wine and think of something ephemerally delightful. coffee date with my soul sisters tomorrow at nine am, suspected means for my restless antics? i’m like a little kid before christmas.
“almost getting mugged in the hood because you notice the gas light is on, is a great way to welcome your friend back to los angeles on a monday night..err tuesday morning [flight delays]. good thing our long beach mindsets kicked in and we got ourselves out of a jam… pump up the volume, dance dance! bed time..”—
i know this is kind of “old news” but, i’ve been meaning to post about it. i plan to make an appointment at the library, apparently they’re checked out.. I want to listen/read/breathe these tapes. how interesting to be a part of the inside story in history.
“And it came to me then. That we were wonderful traveling companions but in the end no more than lonely lumps of metal in their own separate orbits. From far off they look like beautiful shooting stars, but in reality they’re nothing more than prisons, where each of us is locked up alone, going nowhere. When the orbits of these two satellites of ours happened to cross paths, we could be together. Maybe even open our hearts to each other. But that was only for the briefest moment. In the next instant we’d be in absolute solitude. Until we burned up and became nothing.”—Haruki Murakami