“And it came to me then. That we were wonderful traveling companions but in the end no more than lonely lumps of metal in their own separate orbits. From far off they look like beautiful shooting stars, but in reality they’re nothing more than prisons, where each of us is locked up alone, going nowhere. When the orbits of these two satellites of ours happened to cross paths, we could be together. Maybe even open our hearts to each other. But that was only for the briefest moment. In the next instant we’d be in absolute solitude. Until we burned up and became nothing.”—Haruki Murakami
friday night - if your first love and your friends first love are brothers, does this make us a form of sisters? because, that’s our philosophy.
saturday - blissful drive to marietta to finish patterns for my friends wedding dress - had to call in the big guns. see, the bride is a size petite zero.. naturally.. meaning, freak out sessions began to take place when realizing my couture skills just aren’t where they should be.. patterns finished. collaboration in progress? lets just say, i have a consultation with sky couture & a bride on feb 12th and talk of “designing for & with” is in the air..
sunday - dtla adventures for fabric.. 300 bucks, thee perfect vintage lace and my hustling skills mastered [i talked him down from 18/yd to 16/yd.. every bit helps] later, we will now have a finished dress within two weeks tops! i still have to buy the beading to hand-stitch onto the dress.. i then leave la to meet a friend for coffee in long beach.. see, we’ve kept in touch but have yet to meet up, seeing as our schedules do not exactly like one another. 3 hours later, its time to go home… but of course a stop to whole foods was oh so, necessary.. i have a juicer and plan to start my wheat grass shot routine tomorrow!
t to s : i know i know i sound like babbling idiot but im in love today. full of ideas, my head is.
wow, wedding dress patterns are done, thank you to sky couture for saving lives. a collaboration discussion has now taken place.. wedding dress design in the near future? sounds promising. shopping for fabric & beading in dtla tomorrow, this dress should be finished in the next two weeks. funeral parade[follow us] cover shoot project tuesday, photos to follow.. first issue will debut accordingly & all of the positive feedback we have been receiving feels better than christmas. being a part of something bigger than oneself. i don’t think i could be any happier at this moment if i tried. ♥
"Nothing is permanent. Especially people. Strangers become friends. Friends become lovers. Lovers become strangers. Strangers become friends once more, and over and over." — Megan McCafferty
i have a hard time letting go, especially when it involves letting go of people.. but the best words i’ve heard this week have been, he’s just another [insert nostalgic name], another [insert nostalgic name], shes just another [insert nostalgic name], a memory to be kept as such.. and you’ll meet another one, and another and who knows, maybe even another. its beautiful really.
The Knave of Chalices card suggests that my power today lies in trust. I am enthusiastic, open, and trusting about my new found feelings, capacity, passion, or hearts desire. I wear my heart on my sleeve and I am happy when sharing or expressing pleases and connects me to the support, beauty, and love in others. I am empowered by attention and my gift is desire or epiphany.
“i’ve been taught and reminded to go after what you want.. but what if what you want, isn’t necessarily what you should have? i’m getting back into meditation, daily meditation.. and leaving the rest to God. its out of my hands now, technically always has been.. and i’m ok with that..”—
discernment is a process of letting go of what we are not. - Father Thomas Keating
i had coffee with a friend today, a soulmate friend.. meg richer to be exact. coffee then turned into a library hunt [jim morrison, kurt vonnegut & chanel will be my best friends for the evening], which then turned into a late lunch.. common vibe throughout? inspiration, conversation, connection. i have been a bit of a hermit lately with a purpose.. getting to know myself, deep thought, funeral parade work, wedding dress construction; life.. it feels great to be blessed with individuals in life, not needing an explanation. i am letting go of all things i am not. i am ready for the next few steps in my life, new adventures.. i’ve been ready, i’ve been working toward the jump.. i’ve done soul searching and as it may never end [thankfully], we are always learning new things about ourselves.. i am ready for action - its scary but what life is there without fear of the unknown? “i am not afraid of dying, i am afraid of never having lived at all” ♥
written : 17 Sept 2007 listening to : m.i.a. – kala mood : cheerful inspired by : the road trip back from treasure island in san francisco
so this past weekend made me realize how amazing people can be. music seriously saves lifes. i n s a n i t y . dancing with eyes closed, dgb status. for those who do not know : dgb = dance goons brigade. we spread our love through dancing and living and experiencing and moving. traveling hearts, snapping photos – drives down the 1, even when in fear we’ll fall off that damn cliff. road sick and pamper status pee stops.
m e m o r i e s a r e t h e b a s i s o f o u r f o u n d a t i o n .
somewhat depressing to come back to reality yet reality is stable.. it is what keeps us grounded and our heads out of the clouds – but what if all i want is for my head to be in the clouds? i should take that back. reality isn’t depressing its what your reality consists of. life is about loving and living and embracing those around us – everyone is in this life to love and to be loved in return. not one soul has the right to be judgmental. when you spend your time judging, you miss out on that blessed opportunity to love and get to know this individual. tsd + dgb + “funeral parade ..haha” we are all completely opposite individuals yet completely the same. this is what life is made of. we are all different, we are all the same. this random road trip brought my head to the clouds yet my soul to the ground. inspired my mind and forced my heart to keep beating through these tough times of trial and error. life changes taking place and as we all know — change is scary and intimidating yet oh so exciting.
basic blocks are done, in a size 8. need to grade to a size 2. could not find pattern grading book, anywhere. ordered a new book with expedited shipping, thankfully i only spent 31 instead of the bookshelf price of 100+. decided to go to malibu today with the sister for the final day of freedom before dress is done. had a dream last night, i think i remember where this book may be! look in closet, deep back in closet, in a box unmarked… found pattern grading book AND special ruler. jump up and down up and down and all around. no malibu today.. my life consists of a wedding dress at the moment, but i wouldn’t have it any other way. ♥